\u0130lk kez, benim hakk\u0131mda bir film yapan Michelle Porte\u2019a anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc anlatmak isterim size. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn o a\u015famas\u0131nda, b\u00fcy\u00fck eve ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 olan \u2018k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck\u2019 evde, kiler denen yerde bulunuyordum. Yaln\u0131zd\u0131m. Michelle Porte\u2019u o kilerde bekliyordum. B\u00f6yle dingin ve bo\u015f yerlerde s\u0131k s\u0131k kal\u0131r\u0131m. Uzun s\u00fcre. Ve o sessizlik i\u00e7inde. O g\u00fcn, birdenbire, duvar\u0131n dibinde, \u00e7ok yak\u0131n\u0131mda, bir karasine\u011fin ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n son dakikalar\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ve duydum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Onu \u00fcrk\u00fctmemek i\u00e7in yere oturdum. Hi\u00e7 k\u0131m\u0131ldamad\u0131m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Koskoca evin i\u00e7inde onunla yapayaln\u0131zd\u0131m. O zamana kadar sinekleri hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015ftim; onlara lanet okumalar\u0131m d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ku\u015fkusuz. Sizler gibi. Sizler gibi ben de t\u00fcm d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ba\u015f belas\u0131 olan, vebay\u0131 ve koleray\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan o yarat\u0131ktan deh\u015fet duyacak bi\u00e7imde yeti\u015ftirilmi\u015ftim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc izlemek i\u00e7in yakla\u015ft\u0131m. Bah\u00e7enin nemini alm\u0131\u015f kum ve \u00e7imento i\u00e7inde tutsak kalma tehlikesini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc o duvardan kurtulmak istiyordu. Bir sinek nas\u0131l \u00f6l\u00fcyor, onu izledim. Uzun s\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6l\u00fcme kar\u015f\u0131 sava\u015f\u0131yordu. Belki on, belki on be\u015f dakika s\u00fcrd\u00fc, sonra durdu. Ya\u015fam\u0131 sona ermi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Orada kal\u0131p onu izlemeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Sinek, onu ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmdeki gibi duvara yap\u0131\u015f\u0131k kald\u0131, oraya g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f gibi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yan\u0131l\u0131yordum: hen\u00fcz ya\u015f\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Orada durmay\u0131, onu izlemeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fcm, umutla, ya\u015famaya yeniden ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131 umuduyla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Benim oradaki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, o \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc daha da korkun\u00e7 k\u0131l\u0131yordu. Bunu biliyordum, ama kald\u0131m. G\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn sine\u011fi yava\u015f yava\u015f nas\u0131l ku\u015fataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in. Bir de bu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn nereden geldi\u011fini g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan m\u0131, duvar\u0131n derinli\u011finden mi ya da zeminden mi, anlamak i\u00e7in. Hangi karanl\u0131k gecenin i\u00e7inden geliyordu; yeralt\u0131ndan m\u0131, yoksa g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden mi, yak\u0131ndaki ormanlardan m\u0131, yoksa belki de \u00e7ok yak\u0131n\u0131mdaki, hen\u00fcz bir ad verilmesi olanaks\u0131z hi\u00e7likten, benden belki, sonsuzlu\u011fa kat\u0131lmak \u00fczere olan sine\u011fin izlerini bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan benden geliyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nas\u0131l bitti\u011fini bilmiyorum. Ku\u015fkusuz, sonunda g\u00fcc\u00fc t\u00fckenen sinek yere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Duvara tutunan bacaklar\u0131 ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Ve duvardan d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Hi\u00e7 bilmiyorum, oradan uzakla\u015fmam\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda. \u015e\u00f6yle dedim kendi kendime: \u2018Delirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131n.\u2019 Ve oradan uzakla\u015ft\u0131m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Michelle Porte geldi\u011finde, o yeri ona g\u00f6sterdim ve bir sine\u011fin orada, saat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc yirmi ge\u00e7e \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledim. Michelle Porte, buna kahkahalarla g\u00fcld\u00fc. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Bu \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc bitirmek i\u00e7in, ben de ona g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim. Ama hay\u0131r: o, g\u00fclmeyi s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bana gelince, bu \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc, sinekle benim aramda ya\u015fanan \u015feyi size b\u00f6yle, ger\u00e7ekli\u011fi i\u00e7inde, benim ger\u00e7ekli\u011fim i\u00e7inde anlat\u0131yorsam bu, o ya\u015fanan\u0131n hen\u00fcz kendini g\u00fclmeye sunmam\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131ndand\u0131r. Bir sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n belirli bir sonuna do\u011fru ilerleyen \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr, son uykunun alan\u0131n\u0131 yayan, geni\u015fleten bir \u00f6l\u00fcm. Bir k\u00f6pe\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz ya da bir at\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc ve bir \u015feyler dersiniz, \u00f6rne\u011fin, zavall\u0131 hayvan\u2026 Ama bir sinek \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemezsiniz, bir yorumda bulunmazs\u0131n\u0131z, hi\u00e7. Bu, \u015fimdi yaz\u0131ld\u0131 art\u0131k. Belki de bu t\u00fcr kaymalara \u2013bu s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sevmiyorum\u2013 kap\u0131lma tehlikesidir o tehlike. \u00c7ok \u00f6nemli de\u011fil, ama kendi ba\u015f\u0131na bir olgu, b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc olan, anlam\u0131 \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck: anlam\u0131 eri\u015filmez, alan\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z bir olgu. Yahudileri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Almanya\u2019dan nefret ettim, sava\u015f\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnlerinde oldu\u011fu gibi, t\u00fcm varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla, var g\u00fcc\u00fcmle. Sava\u015f s\u0131ras\u0131nda, sokakta ne zaman bir Alman\u2019a rastlasam, onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum; kendi ellerimle ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirdi\u011fim, benim tasarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, incelik kazand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir cinayeti, bir Alman\u2019\u0131n ceset halinde yerde yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeyi, o m\u00fcthi\u015f mutlulu\u011fu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaz\u0131n\u0131n insan\u0131 oraya, o sine\u011fe g\u00f6t\u00fcrmesi de iyi, can \u00e7eki\u015fen sine\u011fe, demek istiyorum: yazman\u0131n deh\u015fetini yazmak. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kesin olarak meydana geldi\u011fi saat, kaydedilmi\u015f saat, sine\u011fi daha o zamandan ula\u015f\u0131lmaz k\u0131l\u0131yordu. Ona genel \u00f6l\u00e7ekte \u00f6nem kazand\u0131r\u0131yordu, d\u00fcnya \u00fczerindeki ya\u015fam\u0131n genel haritas\u0131nda belirli bir yer kazand\u0131r\u0131yordu, diyelim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm an\u0131n\u0131n kesin olarak saptanmas\u0131, sine\u011fe gizli bir cenaze t\u00f6reni yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steriyordu. Bunun kan\u0131t\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden yirmi y\u0131l sonra burada ortaya konuyor, ondan h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u00f6z ediyoruz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00f6lme s\u00fcresini, bu s\u00fcrenin yava\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, uyand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 korkun\u00e7 korkuyu, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn ger\u00e7ekli\u011fini \u015fimdiye kadar hi\u00e7 anlatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm saatinin kesin olarak belirtilmesi, insanlarla ortak ya\u015fama g\u00f6nderme yap\u0131yor, s\u00f6m\u00fcrgele\u015ftirilmi\u015f halklara, d\u00fcnya \u00fczerinde ad\u0131 san\u0131 olmayan o muazzam kitleye, evrensel yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ku\u015fanm\u0131\u015f yaln\u0131z ki\u015filere. Ya\u015fam her yerde. Bakteriden file var\u0131ncaya kadar. Yery\u00fcz\u00fcnden kutsal g\u00f6klere ya da daha \u015fimdiden \u00f6l\u00fc g\u00f6klere kadar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcyle ilgili hi\u00e7bir d\u00fczenleme yapmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Beyaz, kaygan duvarlar, yani kefeni orada haz\u0131rd\u0131 ve bu onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnl\u00fck, do\u011fal ve ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz bir olay k\u0131l\u0131yordu. O sinek, ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n sonuna gelmi\u015fti, bu a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc izlemekten kendimi al\u0131koyamazd\u0131m. K\u0131p\u0131rdam\u0131yordu art\u0131k. Bu da vard\u0131 ve o sine\u011fin var olmu\u015f oldu\u011funun anlat\u0131lamayacak bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu bilmek. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bundan yirmi y\u0131l \u00f6nce. Bu olay\u0131, \u015fimdi anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bi\u00e7imiyle hi\u00e7 anlatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, Michelle Porte\u2019a bile. Bildi\u011fim bir ba\u015fka \u015fey de \u2013yani g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u015fey\u2013 sine\u011fin, i\u00e7ini kaplayan o buz gibi \u015feyin \u00f6l\u00fcm oldu\u011funu \u00e7oktan anlam\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130\u015fin en korkun\u00e7 yan\u0131 da buydu. En beklenmeyen yan\u0131. Biliyordu. Ve kabulleniyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaln\u0131z bir ev, b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclemez. \u00c7evresine zaman\u0131 toplamas\u0131 gerekir evin, insanlar\u0131, \u00f6yk\u00fcleri, \u2018d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktalar\u0131n\u0131\u2019, evlilik ya da o sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc gibi \u015feyleri, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, s\u0131radan \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u2013ayn\u0131 zamanda birinin ve say\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u00fcm \u00f6l\u00fcmlerini, proletaryan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc. Sava\u015flarla gelen \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, d\u00fcnyada olu\u015fmu\u015f sava\u015f da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131n getirdi\u011fi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
O g\u00fcn. Tarihi belli, dostum Michelle Porte ile bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn, yaln\u0131z benim g\u00f6zlerimin g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin saatinin saptanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o g\u00fcn bir sinek \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben ona bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131rada, saat birdenbire, \u00f6\u011fleden sonra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc yirmi ge\u00e7e oldu ve birka\u00e7 saniye daha: d\u0131\u015f kanatlar\u0131n\u0131n v\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 kesildi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sinek \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
O krali\u00e7e. Mavi siyah. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
O sinek, benim g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Yava\u015f yava\u015f. Son titreyi\u015fine kadar sava\u015f\u0131m vermi\u015fti. Ve sonra, teslim olmu\u015ftu. Belki de be\u015f ile sekiz dakika aras\u0131 bir zaman ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Uzun s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Mutlak bir korku \u00e2n\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Ve \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ba\u015fka g\u00f6klere, ba\u015fka gezegenlere, ba\u015fka yerlere do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 oldu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir yandan oradan s\u0131v\u0131\u015fmak istiyor, \u00f6te yandan, yerden gelen bu v\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131ya bakmam gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordum kendi kendime; mademki bir karasine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn o ye\u015fil bedenli \u00e7aresiz v\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymu\u015ftum bir kez. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evet. \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle, sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, edebiyatta \u015fu anda okudu\u011funuz kayman\u0131n ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmesine yol a\u00e7t\u0131. \u0130nsan, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varmaz. Bir sine\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne bak\u0131p yazars\u0131n\u0131z. Bunu yapmaya hakk\u0131n\u0131z vard\u0131r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
O sine\u011fin hangi saatte \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi\u011fimde Michelle Porte, kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 tuta tuta g\u00fcld\u00fc. Ve ben, bu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 bi\u00e7imde anlatan\u0131n belki de ben olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ancak \u015fimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ben o anda ona bunu anlatabilecek durumda de\u011fildim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc izliyordum, o mavi siyah sine\u011fin can \u00e7eki\u015fmesini izliyordum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa her zaman delilik e\u015flik eder. Bunu biliyorum. Delili\u011fi g\u00f6rmezsiniz. Kimi zaman onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nceden sezinlersiniz ancak. Bunun ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc olabilece\u011fini sanm\u0131yorum. \u0130nsan, i\u00e7inde ne var ne yok ortaya d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fse, bir kitab\u0131 dolduracak kadar \u015feyi yani; kimseyle payla\u015famayacak belirli bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k i\u00e7inde demektir.\u00a0\u0130nsanlar\u0131, sizinle bir \u015fey payla\u015fmaya zorlayamazs\u0131n\u0131z. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z kitab\u0131 oturup tek ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za okuman\u0131z, kendinizi o kitaba hapsetmeniz gerekir. Bunun dinsel bir yan\u0131 vard\u0131r tabii, ama siz bunu s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131 s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131na duyumsamazs\u0131n\u0131z, sonradan anlayabilirsiniz ancak (\u015fu anda benim yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi) ve bunu bir \u015feylerle ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 olarak yapars\u0131n\u0131z, \u00f6rne\u011fin ya\u015famla, ya da kitab\u0131n, s\u00f6z\u00fcn ya\u015fam\u0131yla, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u00fcm halklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla, sessiz hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 olarak yapars\u0131n\u0131z. \u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7evremizde bulunan her \u015fey bir \u015fey yazar, sezilmesi gereken i\u015fte budur, her \u015fey yazar; sine\u011fe gelince, sinek duvarlara yazar, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck g\u00f6l\u00fcn parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yans\u0131tan salonun \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ok \u015fey yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Sine\u011fin yaz\u0131s\u0131, bir sayfay\u0131 t\u00fcm\u00fcyle doldurabilirdi. B\u00f6ylelikle de yaz\u0131 haline gelebilirdi. B\u00f6yle oldu\u011fu andan ba\u015flayarak da art\u0131k bir yaz\u0131 olarak kabul edilebilirdi. Bu yaz\u0131 belki bir g\u00fcn, gelecek y\u00fczy\u0131llarda okunabilecek, o yaz\u0131 da \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclecek ve \u00e7evrilecek. Ve o zamana kadar okunamam\u0131\u015f \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u015fiir g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kaplayacakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ama yine de d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir yerlerinde insanlar kitap yaz\u0131yor. Herkes kitap yaz\u0131yor. Ben, \u00f6yle oldu\u011funu san\u0131yorum. \u00d6yle oldu\u011fundan eminim. Blanchot i\u00e7in \u00f6rne\u011fin, \u00f6yle. \u00c7evresinde delilik dolan\u0131p duruyor. Delilik, ayn\u0131 zamanda \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr de. Bataille i\u00e7in \u00f6yle de\u011fil. Bataille, neden \u00f6zg\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncenin, \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncenin uza\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131? Bunu s\u00f6yleyemeyece\u011fim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sine\u011fin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc hakk\u0131nda bir \u015feyler daha s\u00f6ylemek isterim. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnde o sinek, o hayvan, beyaz duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, \u00f6l\u00fcyor. \u00d6nce g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, sonra da karo ta\u015f d\u00f6\u015feli zeminden gelen yans\u0131mada, soluk \u0131\u015f\u0131k alt\u0131nda. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bunu yazmayabilirsiniz de, sine\u011fi unutabilirsiniz. Yaln\u0131zca bakabilirsiniz ona. Kendi ba\u015f\u0131na, bilinmeyen bir g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc alt\u0131nda, korkun\u00e7 ve dokunakl\u0131 bi\u00e7imde nas\u0131l debelendi\u011fini g\u00f6rebilirsiniz ve sonra hi\u00e7. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u015fte hepsi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Marguerite Duras, Yazmak, Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131 (Al\u0131nt\u0131d\u0131r.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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