Y\u00fcr\u00fcyordum. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e de a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordum. Evden k\u0131zg\u0131n \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Belki de t\u0131ra\u015f b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131na sinirlenmi\u015ftim. Olur, olur! Mutlak t\u0131ra\u015f b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131na sinirlenmi\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Otlar\u0131n ye\u015fil olmas\u0131, denizin mavi olmas\u0131, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn bulutsuz olmas\u0131, pek\u00e2l\u00e2 bir meseledir. Kim demi\u015f mesele de\u011fildir, diye? Budalal\u0131k! Ya ya\u011fmur ya\u011fsayd\u0131… Ya otlar\u0131n ye\u015fili mor, ya denizin mavisi k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olsayd\u0131… Olsayd\u0131 o zaman mesele olurdu, i\u015fte.
\u00c7ikolata renginde bir yaprak, \u00e7a\u011fla bademi renkli bir ke\u00e7i g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Birisi arkamdan:
\u2014 Hi\u015ft, dedi.
D\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131m. Yolun kenar\u0131ndaki daha boyunu posunu almam\u0131\u015f taze deve dikenleriyle karaba\u015flar, erik lezzetinde bana bakt\u0131lar. Di\u015flerim kama\u015ft\u0131. Yolda kimsecikler yoktu. Bir evin dam\u0131m, uzakta u\u00e7an bir iki ku\u015fu, yapraklar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan denizi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Yoluma devam ederken:
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft, dedi.
D\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmak istedim. Belki de \u00e7ok istedi\u011fim i\u00e7in d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakamad\u0131m. Olabilir. G\u00f6kten bir ku\u015f, hi\u015ft hi\u015ft ederek ge\u00e7mi\u015ftir. Arkamdan y\u0131lan, tosba\u011fa, bir kirpi ge\u00e7mi\u015ftir. Bir b\u00f6cek vard\u0131r belki, \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d diyen.
\u2014 Hi\u015ft, dedi yine.
Bu sefer belki de isteksizlikten d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131m, \u00e7al\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131na birisi saklan\u0131yormu\u015f gibi geldi bana.
Yolun kenar\u0131na oturdum. Az \u00f6temde bir e\u015fek otluyor. Onun da rengi \u00e7a\u011fla bademi; a\u011fz\u0131, di\u015fleri, kulaklar\u0131, boynu ne g\u00fczel. Otluyor. Otlar\u0131 \u00e2deta \u00e7at\u0131rdata \u00e7at\u0131rdata yiyor. Belki de bu \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131, \u00e7at\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 sesi \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d diye duymu\u015fumdur? E\u015fe\u011fin ot kopar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sesinden apayr\u0131 bir ses:
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft hi\u015ft, dedi.
Hani baz\u0131, kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n dibinde \u00e7ok tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir ses, isminizi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131verir. Olur de\u011fil mi? Pek enderdir. Belki de kendi kafan\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inden sizin sevdi\u011finiz, hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir ses, ses olmadan sizi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Olabilir.
Birdenbire g\u00fcne\u015fi, buluta benzemez garip ve sar\u0131 bir sis kaplad\u0131. Bir kirli el, \u00e7a\u011fla bademi e\u015fe\u011fin s\u0131rt\u0131ndan bir kuma\u015f \u00e7ekip ald\u0131. Her zamanki k\u00fcl rengi, yer yer hav\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f eski mantosunu giydirdi e\u015fe\u011fe. Yola indim. \u0130stedi\u011fi kadar \u00abhi\u015ft\u00bb desin, sahici sulu bir dost olsun. \u0130sterse kimseler olmas\u0131n, kendi kendime kula\u011f\u0131ma \u00abhi\u015ft\u00bb diyen bir divane olay\u0131m ben, ald\u0131rmayaca\u011f\u0131m.
Belki bir ku\u015ftur. Belki tosba\u011fad\u0131r. Belki de kirpidir. Belki de yak\u0131n denizden seslenen bir bal\u0131k, bir canavard\u0131r. Karabatakt\u0131r. Mihal\u00e2ki ku\u015fudur.
\u0130yisi mi ben kendim \u00abhi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u00bb derim. O zaman tamam\u0131 tamam\u0131na pek \u00abhi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u00bb sesleni\u015fine ‘benzemeyen, benzemesin diye u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir m\u0131r\u0131ldanmad\u0131r, tutturdum.
Birdenbire, \u00f6n\u00fcmde bir adamla bir kad\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Kalpazankaya yolunu sordular. \u00dcst\u00fcndesiniz, dedim. Sanki yol hareket etti. Y\u00fcr\u00fcmediler. \u0130ki ad\u0131mda benden uzakla\u015ft\u0131lar. Koyunlar\u0131n aras\u0131na y\u00fcz\u00fckoyun uzanm\u0131\u015f papaz\u0131n o\u011flunu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnden aptal, \u00e7illi horoza benzer bir mahl\u00fbk kalkt\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n salyas\u0131n\u0131 sildi. Kuzuyu bacaklar\u0131ndan tuttu. Kuzu ile yere y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131. Kuzuyu burnundan \u00f6pt\u00fc. Papaz\u0131n o\u011flu \u00e7irkin, aptal, otuz-birli bir y\u00fczle bakt\u0131. \u015eimdi bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek tarlas\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Bana \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d diyen mutlak bir ku\u015ftu. Vard\u0131r b\u00f6yle ku\u015flar. \u201cCik cik\u201d demezler de, \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d derler. Ku\u015ftu, ku\u015f.
Bir adam yer belliyordu. Belin demirine bas\u0131yor, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya \u00e7alan bir toprak alt\u0131n\u0131, \u00fcste aktar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Merhaba hem\u015ferim, dedi.
\u2014 Ooo! Merhaba, dedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tekrar i\u015fine dald\u0131. \u201cHi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d dedim. Ald\u0131rmad\u0131. Bir daha \u201chi\u015ft\u201d dedim. Yine ald\u0131rmad\u0131. H\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft hi\u015ft!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Buyur be\u011fim, dedi.
\u2014 Bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedim, dedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131na soktu. Ka\u015f\u0131d\u0131. \u00c7\u0131kar\u0131p parma\u011f\u0131na bakt\u0131. Belin sap\u0131na siler gibi yapt\u0131.
\u2014 Hi\u015ft, hi\u015ft, dedim.
Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6\u011fe kald\u0131rd\u0131. Ku\u015flara bakt\u0131. Denize bakt\u0131. D\u00f6n\u00fcp \u015f\u00fcphe ile bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bu sene enginarlar nas\u0131l, dedim.
\u2014 \u0130yi de\u011fil, dedi.
\u2014 Baklay\u0131 ne zaman keseceksin?
\u2014 Daha ister, dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nefes al\u0131r gibi \u201chi\u015ft\u201d dedim.
Yine \u015f\u00fcphe ile denize, \u015f\u00fcphe ile g\u00f6\u011fe, \u015f\u00fcphe ile bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ku\u015flar olmal\u0131, dedim.
\u2014 Benim de kula\u011f\u0131ma bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131 gelir amma, dedi. Ne taraftan gelir? Zati bu s\u0131rada \u015fu kula\u011f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131.
\u2014 Bir y\u0131katmal\u0131, dedim. Benim de ge\u00e7enlerde a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131…
\u2014 Y\u0131katt\u0131n m\u0131?
\u2014 Y\u0131katmad\u0131m, hacet kalmad\u0131, doktora gittim. Al\u0131verdi; pislikmi\u015f.
\u2014 \u00c7ocuklar nas\u0131l, diye sordum.
\u2014 \u0130yiler, dedi. Dokuzdu sekiz kald\u0131. Biliyorsun dokuzuncunun maceras\u0131n\u0131 ya…
\u2014 Sus, sus, dedim. Y\u00fcrekler ac\u0131s\u0131. Haydi, Allaha \u0131smarlad\u0131k!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Haydi, g\u00fcle g\u00fcle. Biraz uzakla\u015f\u0131nca:
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu sefer yakalad\u0131m. Bah\u00e7\u0131vand\u0131. Oydu oydu.
\u2014 Hadi, hadi, yakalad\u0131m bu sefer seni, dedim.
\u2014 Yok vallahi, dedi. Vallahi daha kesmedim bakla, senden ne diye
saklayay\u0131m, paras\u0131yla de\u011fil mi?
\u2014 Sen de\u011fil misin \u00abhi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u00bb diyen?
\u2014 Ben de duyar\u0131m bir ses, amma bulamam nereden gelir?
Nereden gelirse gelsin; da\u011flardan, ku\u015flardan, denizden, insandan, hayvandan, ottan, b\u00f6cekten, \u00e7i\u00e7ekten\u2026 Gelsin de nereden gelirse gelsin!… Bir \u201chi\u015ft hi\u015ft\u201d sesi gelmedi mi fena. Geldikten sonra ya\u015fas\u0131n \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, b\u00f6cekler, insano\u011fullar\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft!
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft!
\u2014 Hi\u015ft hi\u015ft<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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