Edebiyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en \u00e7ok i\u015flenen konular\u0131ndan biri de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131d\u0131r. Babalar ve o\u011fullar\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi sadece Turgenyev\u2019le s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, baba o\u011ful \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131 i\u015flendi\u011fi kadar baba o\u011ful aras\u0131ndaki s\u0131cak ili\u015fki de \u00e7ok kez kendine yer bulmu\u015ftur edebiyat\u0131m\u0131zda. Tar\u0131k Bu\u011fra\u2019n\u0131n O\u011flumuz hik\u00e2yesi de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ve bir baban\u0131n o\u011flunun b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ger\u00e7e\u011fini kabullenme s\u00fcrecini anlatmas\u0131yla dikkat \u00e7eker. \u00d6yk\u00fc ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131nda bu \u00f6yk\u00fcye yer vermek istedik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kar\u0131m, g\u00fcne\u015f belirmeye ba\u015flayan pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde oturuyordu. B\u00fct\u00fcn geceyi orada ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSen h\u00e2l\u00e2 yatmayacak m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do\u011fruldu. K\u00fcl rengi pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde sadece bir g\u00f6lgeden ibaretti. Fakat bu g\u00f6lgede beraber ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz yirmi k\u00fcsur y\u0131l\u0131n her g\u00fcn\u00fcnden bir \u015fey vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cEzan okunuyor\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sesi bana h\u00fcz\u00fcn verdi. Odam\u0131z bu d\u00fcnyada, duygular\u0131n eri\u015femeyece\u011fi kadar \u00f6tede gibiydi ve kar\u0131m, Kur\u2019anla vaadedilen saadetini, sanki as\u0131rlardan beri beyhude yere bekliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hareketlerinde ve y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde kabul edilmi\u015f bir ma\u011fl\u00fbbiyetin hazin s\u00fck\u00fbneti vard\u0131. Mutfa\u011fa ge\u00e7ti. Onu sanki r\u00fcyada g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum: Mangala ve semavere k\u00f6m\u00fcr koydu; abdest ald\u0131, sonra seccadesini sofaya sererek namaza durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencere iyiden iyiye ayd\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Renksiz, sessiz ve serin ku\u015fluk vakti: Yata\u011f\u0131n \u0131l\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, belirsiz duygular, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceden ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f. Dalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYahu\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNe var?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cGeldi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201c\u0130yi ya i\u015fte\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fakat mesele bu de\u011fildi: Kar\u0131m beni kay\u0131ts\u0131z buluyor ve \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeyecek misin; bu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc oluyor\u2026 Ha yahu: Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bilir miyim ben? Fakat ona:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYar\u0131n bir \u015feyler yapar\u0131m\u201d diyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hangi yar\u0131n?.. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc tatl\u0131 mavili\u011fini bulmu\u015ftu bile. G\u00fcn, kat\u0131lmaya mecbur oldu\u011fumuz g\u00fcn, ba\u015fl\u0131yordu. Kar\u0131m hakl\u0131. Bunun \u00fczerinde durmak laz\u0131m. O\u011flum yata\u011f\u0131na daha yeni giriyordu. Ona, bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcmitsiz bir isyan oldu\u011funu anlatmal\u0131yd\u0131m. Yataktan, birdenbire f\u0131rlad\u0131m. Kar\u0131m tela\u015fland\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cFazla sert davranma. Ne de olsa art\u0131k\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Devam edemedi. Ona bakt\u0131m: G\u00f6zlerindeki mana allak bullak. Ah benim saz benizli, k\u0131r sa\u00e7l\u0131 bebe\u011fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u0131karken, omuzlar\u0131ma h\u0131rkam\u0131 koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Odas\u0131 g\u00fcndo\u011fdu taraf\u0131ndayd\u0131. Pencereleri b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir bah\u00e7eye bakard\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131 evden kurtulmak \u00fczere olan g\u00fcne\u015f, duvarlar\u0131 hafif\u00e7e pembele\u015ftirmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve o, uyumu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elbiselerini masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne at\u0131vermi\u015f, pijamas\u0131n\u0131n ceketini giymemi\u015fti. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki sandalyeye ili\u015ftim. \u0130\u00e7im bir tuhaft\u0131. Ona bakam\u0131yordum; fakat onunla doluydum: T\u0131pk\u0131, \u00e7ok eskiden bir defa daha oldu\u011fu gibi: O zaman daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc, tifoya tutulmu\u015ftu, ate\u015fi vard\u0131, say\u0131kl\u0131yordu. O, \u015fimdi bunu hat\u0131rlamaz ki\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
***<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Karl\u0131 bir \u015fubat gecesi do\u011fmu\u015ftu. Babam\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131na verirken bir tuhaft\u0131m\u2026 \u0130sim ararken kamus bana ne kadar bo\u015f gelmi\u015fti. Ona, \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l, kainat gibi manal\u0131 bir kelime bulmak istiyordum. Sonunda ona \u00d6mer dedik. Bu da ona \u00e7ok yak\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Onu, tarihe girmi\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00d6mer\u2019lerin ikbaline lay\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130lk g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u2026 ilk di\u015f\u2026 ilk kelime\u2026 Annesine do\u011fru, gen\u00e7, g\u00fczel ve mesut annesine do\u011fru ilk ad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sonra yedinci ya\u015f\u2026 Mektebe g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm g\u00fcn ne kadar a\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131: Sanki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na evden ba\u015fka bir ortak kabul etmek istemiyordu. Fakat bu mukadderdi: O da her o\u011ful gibi sokak, mektep ve \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 aras\u0131nda, g\u00fcnden g\u00fcne katile\u015fen bir b\u00f6l\u00fcnmeye mahk\u00fbmdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ve on d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ya\u015f: H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131klar, i\u015ftihas\u0131zl\u0131klar\u2026 Bize yeni bir ortak daha, ortaklar\u0131n en yenilmezi\u2026 Kar\u0131m\u0131n ma\u011frur tela\u015flar\u0131 ve benim ilk endi\u015fem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Liseyi, daha sonra fak\u00fclteyi bitirdi. Bu arada, onu biraz daha iyi ya\u015fatabilmek i\u00e7in, kar\u0131m, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcnden kalan \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015fibirli\u011fini bozdurdu\u2026 Ve o, ilk a\u015fk\u0131n bahts\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile sars\u0131ld\u0131, bizi de peri\u015fan etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00f6ylece biz ona b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn ba\u011flan\u0131rken, d\u00fcnyam\u0131z art\u0131k tamamen onunla hudutlan\u0131rken\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSen bizden ayr\u0131l\u0131verdin. Sevgimiz artt\u0131k\u00e7a sen biraz daha fazla rahats\u0131z oluyordun. Ben bunu anl\u0131yordum: Sen buna biraz da h\u00fcrriyetine tecav\u00fcz buluyordun. Fakat annen\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben biliyorum: Sen, art\u0131k odalar\u0131n bu d\u00f6\u015feni\u015f tarz\u0131n\u0131, hatta bu evi be\u011fenmiyorsun\u2026 U\u00e7may\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f bir ser\u00e7e yavrusu gibi, g\u00f6z\u00fcn ba\u015fka dallarda. Senin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, kim bilir ne cici \u015feydir. Bizi misafir edece\u011fin oday\u0131 da unutmam\u0131\u015fs\u0131nd\u0131r; buna eminim. Bu kadar\u0131 bize\u2026 Bana yeter\u2026 Fakat annen\u2026 Bunu sen de seziyor, arada s\u0131rada, hatta s\u0131k s\u0131k karde\u015flerini nas\u0131l okutaca\u011f\u0131ndan, bizim i\u00e7in neler tasavvur etti\u011finden bahsediyorsun. Fakat birbirimizden ni\u00e7in gizleyelim; sen b\u00f6yle konu\u015furken sesini titreten \u015feyde biraz vicdan burkulmas\u0131 ve daha \u00e7ok \u00e7aresizli\u011fin azab\u0131 yok mu? Ama sen bunun i\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fclme, senin elinden ne gelir; hayat b\u00f6yle i\u015fte, yapamazs\u0131n ki\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben senin i\u00e7kiden ne umdu\u011funu biliyorum; al\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131na da eminim\u2026 Fakat annen\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sonra ben senin d\u0131\u015far\u0131da ne arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, evden ni\u00e7in ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da biliyorum. Belki de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir orospu. Ben onlara d\u00fc\u015fman de\u011filim; hatta\u2026 Fakat annen\u2026 Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z b\u00f6yle birine kap\u0131l\u0131vereceksin diye tir tir titriyor. Sen gecelerini b\u00f6yle d\u0131\u015far\u0131da ge\u00e7irince, kuruntular\u0131, \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l caddeleri ve gazinolar\u0131 masal ma\u011faralar\u0131na \u00e7eviriyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fakat bunlara ne l\u00fczum var; sen sanki bunlar\u0131 bilmiyor musun?.. Ben sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u015feylerin senin kalbini nas\u0131l s\u0131zlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyor muyum?.. Annen, ben\u2026 Sen bize bakma. B\u00fct\u00fcn budalal\u0131k bizde. Biraz hasta olman\u0131 bekler gibiyiz. H\u00e2l\u00e2 bize en \u00e7ok ait oldu\u011fun g\u00fcnlerdeki gibi kalman\u0131 istiyoruz. De\u011fi\u015febilece\u011fini akl\u0131m\u0131z alm\u0131yor. \u0130\u015fte, g\u00f6zlerimi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7eviremiyorum, sana bakam\u0131yorum. Annen de b\u00f6yle. \u015eimdi biz, seni uyand\u0131ramay\u0131z. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye cesaret edemeden biliyoruz ki; art\u0131k senin uykun da de\u011fi\u015fti. Eskiden bizi bekler gibi uyurdun. Evet, art\u0131k uykun da de\u011fi\u015fti. Hatta as\u0131l de\u011fi\u015fiklik uykular\u0131nda oldu; sen uykular\u0131nda da bizden uzakla\u015ft\u0131n\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7evirdim: Ona bakt\u0131m. Bunu yaparken romatizmal\u0131 kolumu kullan\u0131r gibiydim. Fakat i\u00e7im birdenbire ferahlad\u0131: Sanki y\u0131llard\u0131r arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulmu\u015ftum. Isl\u0131k \u00e7almak istiyordum. Perdeleri indirdim; g\u00fcne\u015f onu rahats\u0131z edecekti. Benimkilere benzeyen sert ve siyah sakall\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc hafif\u00e7e \u00f6perek d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ay\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7erken kar\u0131m biraz dalg\u0131nd\u0131. Ben, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flumun \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 gizlice, hi\u00e7 sevmedi\u011fi limonla doldurdum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tar\u0131k Bu\u011fra, O\u011flumuz-Yar\u0131n Diye Bir \u015eey Yoktur, \u0130leti\u015fim Yay\u0131nlar\u0131 (Al\u0131nt\u0131d\u0131r.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Edebiyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en \u00e7ok i\u015flenen konular\u0131ndan biri de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131d\u0131r. Babalar ve o\u011fullar\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi sadece Turgenyev\u2019le s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, baba o\u011ful \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131 i\u015flendi\u011fi kadar baba o\u011ful aras\u0131ndaki s\u0131cak ili\u015fki de \u00e7ok kez kendine yer bulmu\u015ftur edebiyat\u0131m\u0131zda. Tar\u0131k Bu\u011fra\u2019n\u0131n O\u011flumuz hik\u00e2yesi de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ve bir baban\u0131n o\u011flunun b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ger\u00e7e\u011fini kabullenme s\u00fcrecini anlatmas\u0131yla dikkat \u00e7eker. \u00d6yk\u00fc ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131nda …<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":7845,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_eb_attr":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[87],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7771","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-oyku"],"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew.png",1563,1250,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew.png",1563,1250,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew.png",1563,1250,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-150x120.png",150,120,true],"medium":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-300x240.png",300,240,true],"large":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-1024x819.png",1024,819,true],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-1536x1228.png",1536,1228,true],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew.png",1563,1250,false],"codate_slider":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-1563x1000.png",1563,1000,true],"codate_item":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-550x350.png",550,350,true],"codate_item_vetical":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-500x800.png",500,800,true],"codate_item_masonry":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-550x440.png",550,440,true],"codate_blog":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-417x340.png",417,340,true],"codate_single":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-852x500.png",852,500,true],"codate_tabs":["https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/Tarik-Bugra-revizew-90x90.png",90,90,true]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"editorYasin","author_link":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/author\/editoryasin"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"\u00d6yk\u00fc<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":"Edebiyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en \u00e7ok i\u015flenen konular\u0131ndan biri de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131d\u0131r. Babalar ve o\u011fullar\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi sadece Turgenyev\u2019le s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, baba o\u011ful \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131 i\u015flendi\u011fi kadar baba o\u011ful aras\u0131ndaki s\u0131cak ili\u015fki de \u00e7ok kez kendine yer bulmu\u015ftur edebiyat\u0131m\u0131zda. Tar\u0131k Bu\u011fra\u2019n\u0131n O\u011flumuz hik\u00e2yesi de ku\u015fak \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ve bir baban\u0131n o\u011flunun b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ger\u00e7e\u011fini kabullenme s\u00fcrecini anlatmas\u0131yla dikkat \u00e7eker. \u00d6yk\u00fc ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131nda…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7771","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7771"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7771\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7775,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7771\/revisions\/7775"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/7845"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7771"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7771"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yazinulkesi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7771"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}