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Kafas\u0131 bo\u015flukta d\u00f6nen bir \u00e7ark gibi manas\u0131z ve faydas\u0131z u\u011fultularla dolu. Hat\u0131ralar \u00e7abucak biten ve okuna okuna hi\u00e7bir cazibesi kalmayan eski bir kitap gibi. Ist\u0131raplar\u0131n\u0131 kelimele\u015ftirmek tesellisinden de mahrum, a\u011flamas\u0131 da yasak!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z kainatta onun hissesine d\u00fc\u015fen mesafe v\u00fccudu ile hudutlu, a\u011fa\u00e7 gibi, evet a\u011fa\u00e7 gibi\u2026 K\u00f6k\u00fcnden s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ve kurumaya terkedilmi\u015f bir a\u011fa\u00e7.
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Ona \u00f6yle geliyor ki aylardan beri d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn saatleri durmu\u015ftur. Yaln\u0131z\u2026 Belki ebediyen yaln\u0131z.
Buffon \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn deh\u015fetinden bahseder. Pascal sonsuzlu\u011fun y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m gibi \u00e7arpan azametini anlat\u0131r\u2026
G\u00f6rmek tabiata tahakk\u00fcm etmektir. D\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnya, ne kadar d\u00fc\u015fman unsurlarla dolup ta\u015farsa ta\u015fs\u0131n, zek\u00e2m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zbebeklerimizden bo\u015falan seyyalesiyle ehlile\u015fmeye, mutile\u015fmeye mahk\u00fbmdur. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zdan maddeye i\u015fler: madde bizimdir. Tabiatla ebedi bir vuslat i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayabiliriz. Her bak\u0131\u015f d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyaya at\u0131lan bir kementtir. Mek\u00e2n canavar\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn buutlar\u0131yla ehlile\u015fiverir. G\u00f6ren, hangi hakla yaln\u0131zl\u0131ktan \u015fik\u00e2yet edebilir? Mevsimler b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fveleriyle emrinde, renkler b\u00fct\u00fcn cilveleriyle hizmetindedir. Y\u0131ld\u0131zlar onun i\u00e7in do\u011far, \u00e7i\u00e7ekler onun i\u00e7in abidele\u015fir, g\u00fcne\u015f, ku\u015flar\u0131n kanad\u0131nda, onun i\u00e7in, alaimiseman\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn n\u00fcanslar\u0131na ge\u00e7it resmi yapt\u0131r\u0131r. \u015eehrin b\u00fct\u00fcn kad\u0131nlar\u0131 onun i\u00e7in giyinip s\u00fcslenir. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n tebess\u00fcm\u00fc onun i\u00e7indir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sesler, yap\u0131\u015fkan, kirli bir s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u00fcb\u00f6cek murdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccuda dolan sesler\u2026 Hastan\u0131n biri \u00f6rde\u011fini doldurmakla me\u015fgul\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir temerk\u00fcz kamp\u0131n\u0131n rutubetli h\u00fccresinde sabah\u0131 bekleyen adam, herhangi bir d\u00e2van\u0131n fedaisi olmaktan do\u011fan gururla sarma\u015f dola\u015ft\u0131r. Kulaklar\u0131nda her an bir destan m\u0131srala\u015f\u0131r. Yar\u0131n beynine son kur\u015funu yerken tabiat\u0131n \u015fehrayini ile bir kere daha kucakla\u015facak ve nesiller Me\u00e7hul Asker\u2019i mezar ta\u015f\u0131nda onu da h\u00fcrmetle selamlayacakt\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sesler, \u0131s\u0131rgan gibi deriye yap\u0131\u015fan, s\u00fcl\u00fck gibi tahamm\u00fcl\u00fc s\u00f6m\u00fcren, \u00e7eki\u00e7 gibi kafaya inen sesler\u2026
Horace, hastal\u0131klar\u0131n \u015fiire konu olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yler. Lucrece, Atina\u2019daki b\u00fcy\u00fck vebay\u0131 terenn\u00fcm etmi\u015fse de, bu, evvela bir istisnad\u0131r, sonra vaka kahraman\u0131 herhangi bir \u015fah\u0131s de\u011fil, bir kalabal\u0131kt\u0131r.
Hastane, d\u00fcnya roman\u0131n\u0131n i\u011freti misafirlerinden ve fig\u00fcranlar\u0131ndand\u0131r. Barbusse\u2019\u00fcn \u201cAte\u015f\u201di (Le Feu) bir sanatoryumda ba\u015flar. Zola\u2019n\u0131n \u201cFecondite\u201dsinde, Dickens\u2019in ad\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m baz\u0131 romanlar\u0131nda, Tolstoy\u2019da, D\u2019Annunzio\u2019da, \u00c7ehov\u2019da hastalardan ve hastanelerden uzun uzun bahsedilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evet, insan hayat\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile b\u00fct\u00fcn kirlili\u011fi ile sayfala\u015ft\u0131rmaktan adeta marazi bir zevk duyan roman bile, hastalar\u0131 \u00fcvey evlat saym\u0131\u015f. Herhangi bir katil, herhangi bir h\u0131rs\u0131z, herhangi bir sap\u0131k, karanl\u0131klar i\u00e7inde bocalayan bu \u0131st\u0131raplar kervan\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn unsurlar\u0131ndan daha enteresan.
G\u00f6rmeyen insan, bozuk bir ampul gibi manas\u0131z; b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yerde kalan bir paket; i\u00e7inde eski hat\u0131ralar oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in arada bir kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lmaya lay\u0131k\u2026 \u00c7ocukken oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir ta\u015fbebek gibi, atmaya k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z acayip bir k\u00fcl\u00e7e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu ko\u011fu\u015ftakiler saati, ya d\u0131\u015farda birbirine \u00e7arpan s\u00fct g\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlerinden veya M\u00f6sy\u00f6 Fran\u00e7ois\u2019n\u0131n \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden \u00f6\u011frenirler. Bu ko\u011fu\u015fta s\u00f6z\u00fc do\u011fru de\u011fil, bu cehennemde de kastlar, dereceler, farklar var. Birazdan M\u00f6sy\u00f6 Francois, e\u015feklerini sulayan bir de\u011firmenci \u00e7al\u0131m\u0131 ile hastalara s\u00fctl\u00fc kahve dedi\u011fi acayip i\u00e7kiyi ihsan edecektir\u2026 Koku ve ses. Ten kokusu, sidik kokusu, a\u011f\u0131z kokusu, genzi g\u0131c\u0131klayan a\u011f\u0131r bir nikotin kokusu\u2026 Kocaman konserve kutular\u0131ndan uydurulan sigara tablalar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na kadar izmarit, meyve kabu\u011fu, ekmek art\u0131\u011f\u0131 doludur\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Okyanusta bir sal, salda bir yolcu ve gece\u2026 Bu kitap f\u0131rt\u0131naya tutulan o yolcunun, i\u00e7ine kafas\u0131ndaki b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 doldurup, dalgalara f\u0131rlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fi\u015fe! Denize at\u0131lan \u015fi\u015fe hangi sahilde, hangi bahtiyar taraf\u0131ndan bulunacak\u2026 Kumsalda oynayan \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7indeki tomardan u\u00e7urtma m\u0131 yapacaklar?
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerine inat\u00e7\u0131 bir z\u0131pk\u0131n gibi saplanan \u0131st\u0131raplardan utan\u0131yor, utan\u0131yor. Kanatlar\u0131 oklarla delik de\u015fik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinin. Onlarda ne kartal ihti\u015fam\u0131 var, ne albatros azameti\u2026 Bir zamanlar batakl\u0131klardan enginlere bir k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 gibi s\u00fcz\u00fclen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler\u2026 \u015eimdi enginler sis i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Deha, dikenli bir ta\u00e7. \u0130sa\u2019dan Marquis de Sade\u2019a, Homeros\u2019dan Milton\u2019a kadar b\u00fct\u00fcn bu b\u00fcy\u00fckler Nemesis\u2019in h\u0131\u015fm\u0131na u\u011frad\u0131. Deha, dikenli bir ta\u00e7, yaratmak daima \u0131st\u0131rapl\u0131\u2026 Fakat yaratamadan \u0131st\u0131rap \u00e7ekmek daha dayan\u0131lmaz bir \u00e7ile. Yahut kalbinden ve kafas\u0131ndan do\u011facak b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131klar\u0131n, zinde ve g\u00fcrb\u00fcz de olsalar, \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclece\u011fine inanmak ve onlar\u0131 do\u011fmadan bo\u011fmak\u2026 Isparta c\u0131l\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 bo\u011farm\u0131\u015f. Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc cemiyet fikrin ve hissin en nurtopu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na musallat. Muarri, mutaass\u0131p bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131nda en kutsal inan\u00e7larla hi\u00e7bir ceza g\u00f6rmeden alay edebiliyordu. Bedbahtl\u0131k ona b\u00f6yle bir imtiyaz kazand\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Modern cemiyette bedbahtl\u0131\u011f\u0131n o kadarc\u0131k tesellisi de yok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cemil Meri\u00e7, Jurnal, \u0130leti\u015fim Yay\u0131nlar\u0131 (Al\u0131nt\u0131d\u0131r.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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